“Your way, O God, is holy.
What god is great like our God?
You are the God who works wonders;”
Psalm 77

This will not be clever. I am just too tired and so this will be a straight forward update.

I brought Little to get her pacemaker checked and sutures trimmed today. It was a routine one-week follow-up appointment and was supposed to take 20 min. max but I packed a bag and was prepared to stay.  Little threw up Sunday and Monday and had been without color for 24 hours; I knew something was wrong.

In the clinic they checked her pacemaker and by the end of our 20 min. appointment we had been admitted. Turns out there were all these spikes in her heart rate – incredibly high. They admitted us to the CICU so that they could readily access all the tests they wanted to do and be ready to deal with any surprises. The echocardiogram shows her heart is bigger and weaker than before and the top chamber isn’t communicating with the bottom chamber when her rate goes high…which it keeps doing.  She has a blood clot attached to the pacemaker “lead” and they think that might be what is causing the spikes in heart rate. Her oxygen intake is low since the heart isn’t pumping enough blood; it’s backing up into her lungs.

I am tense.

They have started meds to help get rid of the clot. They have started a medicine that makes the heart pump. They have started a medicine to lower the heart rate. Now we wait. She is quiet and tired.

I am sad.

The younger two kiddos are home and a friend from ELIC is staying with them.  My sister has purchased a ticket and flies in tomorrow morning (a MAJOR  gift since she HATES to fly). I haven’t had a chance to talk to my mom yet. My friend Debbie sent me the passage with which I have bookended this post.

I am trusting.

“Your way, O God, is holy.
What god is great like our God?
You are the God who works wonders;”
Psalm 77